We talked about if there is a Tooth Fairy for dogs since we had never had one visit, when you looked up at me and asked, with a wee bit of a doubting look, "Are you the Tooth Fairy Mama?".
I must admit my heart sunk a little when you asked that question.
You are one month away from turning 9 years old.
9 walks around the sun for you and oh-my how you have grown!
From this
to this
You said that your friends told you there is no such thing as MAGIC and that the parents are the Tooth Fairy and there is no Santa.
So I looked into your beautiful, blue eyes and just said "What do you think? Do you believe in Magic?".
I could see you were torn between what your friends say and what you believe, what you want to believe.
I could see your doubts and somehow it was almost like you didn't want me to know that there might be no magic in this world.
So let me tell you what magic is my child, for as long as I am in this world there WILL be magic in your life and more importantly in your heart!
Magis is...
...finding love
...having best friends forever
...holding your 2 day old baby in your arms
...rocking your baby in your sleep
...touching your new baby sister for the first time
...sledding down a hill
...building a Solstice tree
...Christmas at a cabin in the woods
...selfmade gifts
...kisses under the Christmas tree
...ice art
...sleeping next to your best friend and sister
...hiking up a water fall
...making your own Harry Potter world
...mama-L-hugs
...watching things grow
...having a Dork
...BFF
...surprises from Omi
...pancake faces
...first days of school
...hammok love
...riding a horse
...waiting for your Papa to come home
...Darth Vader bday cakes
...GM kisses
...teaching your Dork the ABC
...running your first race
...Elfing
...jumping in leaves
...laying in a pile of leaves
...taking your Nutcracker to see "The Nutcracker"
...last moments of love
...saying Good Bye
...hiking with friends
...visiting very special friends
...floating down a river
...making a garden at the lake
... YOU
...your sister
...paddling a cross the lake
...being crazy
...making music
...swimming like Superman
...skating with your GP
...shoe shopping sprees
...picking up your Papa from the airport after 3 long weeks of waiting
...dancing with your sister
...wearing your mom's wedding dress and vail
...sister love
...Toy Story
...being thankful
...going as an Elf to school
...skiing down a hill between your Papa's legs
...tea parties
...missing your best friend
...being able to see the wonders of the world
...riding a karusell into the night
...homemade apron-skirts to hold your treasures
...Valentines cards from your dog to your cat
...your cat reading your dogs Valentines cards
...celebrating love
...always having your best friend right next to you
...making snowmen
...seeing beauty
...bathing in 1000... bubbles
...watching Harry Potter at 11 pm with your Papa
...making a rainbow
...giving it sparkle
...looking up into the sky
...your Dork and his favorite purple basket
...dancing with your Nutcracker
...greeting the New Year from the top of a windy mountain
...sillie selfies
...dancing Gangdam Style with your best buddies
...regular family dinners
...finding a matching pair of socks (or not)
...being silly
...drawing the best pictures ever!
...carrying your cat who is heavier than you :P
...busting your cat
...drawing the best Ninjas
...making potstickers with your Chinese family
...being kind and helping others
...making snow angels
...finding new love
...taking a picture with your brother and sister
...Christmas in March
...loving with your whole heart
...balancing a raisin on your nose
...Shaver Lake
...peaceful moments
...watching your puppy being born
... family traditions
...feeding your chickens
...jumping off a diving board
...going boating with your buddies
...meeting very special teachers
...bringing your puppy home
...having TWO puppies in the house
...freshly bathed puppy faces
...Sports Camp love
...being inventive
...dreaming BIG
...laying out your outfit for the next day
...beauty treatments
...living large
...Fairy hockey players
...Lulu style
...getting pink sparkle shoes
...dancing
...birthday candles
...sleep-overs
...growing up together
Magic IS REAL!
You see my love!
It will always be real, no matter what others say and we have thousands of memories to prove it.
Waking up with fairy dust on your face in the morning and finding a letter from the tooth fairy is wonderful but the real magic is in your heart and your soul.
Your smile is magic.
Your hugs are magic.
Your kisses are magic.
You giggling with your sister is magic.
Knowing that no matter what happens in this word and in your life you will ALWAYS have your family behind you and with you, that is magic.
Love is magic.
Don't ever doubt that my wonderful baby girl!
Santa and Fairies are REAL as long as you have magic in your heart.
I am 38 years old (still :) and I still believe in the magic of Christmas, in the magic of putting your tooth in a pillow and looking for easter eggs.
I believe in the magic of Elfing, hiding behind bushes in the dark watching friends and neighbors find treats in front of their door.
I believe in leaving out cookies for Santa and reindeer food.
I believe in reading "The Night before Christmas" and watching "Prep and Landing".
I believe in the magic of Christmas morning and waking up at 5:00 am running to the tree.
I believe in making christmas cookies and carving pumpkins, coloring easter eggs and making decorations.
No matter what happens in your life my Love, no matter what people say, when you are 38 years old and maybe have a little girl of your own, you will see what the true magic is and how sad life would be without it.
I feel sorry for everyone in this world who doesn't believe in magic and love. Life would be so sad and empty without it.
Think of our Christmas at Sorenson's and how MAGICAL it was.
Years down the road you will not remember what Santa brought you that Christmas but hopefully you'll remember building the Solstice Tree, making ice art, reading "The Lion in the Box" and Papa screaming "Figgy Pudding" and having a tea party every day.
Time spent together, memories being made, that is the true magic ... it's called LOVE.
You, your sister and your Papa, you guys are my magic and as long as I live I will make sure that there will be magic for all of us.
With love,
Your Mama <3
