"It is better to have loved and lost ...

... than to have never loved at all.
~ Alfred Lord Tennyson

A lonesome rose in the window, just where Dorkie used to wait for Pat to come home.

Nobody at the door to greet us overly excited.
Nobody to race over to eat the dropped goldfish.
Nobody to walk the chickens through the yard.

Even Zoe is wandering around, looking very lost and coming near us (something she never does).
Everybody is hurting!
What a shitty day it has been.

I tried to sweep the kitchen and all that I saw was Dorkie's fur ... so much for that.
After one box of Kleenex later (and Pat's shirt)...
Made a mental note to phone the doctor tomorrow to schedule my heart-removal.
I's too broken anyways ...
I am so done with saying good bye to my 4 legged kids.

The Ls are very up and down.
L is just angry!
I haven't seen her so angry, ever.
We tried to talk to her but she is very closed up and says "I am ok. I am over it!"
Right on girlie!

Lulu is talking a lot about him but she doesn't quite understand it yet (thank God for that!).

Just a shitty day, thats all I have to say!

There is no pill in this world that can take this hurt away.
He was just here, with me, by my side, looking as dorkie as ever and now he is gone.
Just like that.
Dust in the wind.

Life sucks sometimes!!!

Good night my sweet, little, wonderful Dorkie.
Hope you had a fun first day in doggy heaven with my Willie boy!

You two make an awesome couple, underbite fluffy-head and dorkie happy-go-lucky Dork.
Heaven with all it's angels must be laughing and laughing and laughing ... glad somebody has reason to!

And just FYI God, I think I met my quota!
Please knock on another door if you need more company up there. We have nothing left to give!

xoxo,
A very sad Dorkie Mama