Stay At Home Mom

So many times I feel somewhat inadequate or like I am not a real contributor to society and our household, since I don't have real employment, no career, nothing to brag about when we go out and meet people.
You go out and meet new folks and they ask you "And what do you do?" and I answer "I stay home with my girls" and I can see the "oh" expression in their face and the "oh she is one of those" attitude.

Then I look at my house, which is by far NO show home.
There are always and at any given time toys spread all over the house, at least 10 single socks in every corner of the house (probably some of Lulu's underpants too), there are dog toys everywhere (you most likely will fall over one of them at least once an hour), piles of fabric on my desk for projects that have been started but will take forever to be finished, laundry on the clothes lines outside and snack food everywhere (Lulu stashes stuff away for "bad times").

Not much success here either I guess.

I always thought that the proper Stay At Home Mom has the PERFECT house, perfectly groomed and clean dressed children that behave just perfectly and never, ever make a mess and are always charming and polite.
If you know the Ls .... that ain't us either.

So of course I feel like I am not doing my part, I am not succeeding at much and I am wondering if this is the beginning thought of every midlife crisis?

BUT then I stand there and see this ...

Just a regular weekday morning in the CZ household.

At 8:30 am we sit at the table and play with our breakfast smily faces and just have a blast.
The Ls get up at their leisure, eat a SLOW breakfast and then retreat to their room for play/fight time.

No rushing out of the house, no hurry and no stress (well besides the fighting maybe :)
And then I can sit at my computer and type up this quick post, just because it just popped into my mind and I really feel like I need to write this down.

And then I look at this ...

... and I feel like, I do have something to be proud of and to brag about.

I get to spend so much time with these little ladies and enjoy every second (mostly the fighting ones :) with them.

Because soon enough they will be too big and too "grown up" to goof around with their parents or to hang out with us and then I can withdraw from my "spending time with my Ls savings bank" and the memories I have of these fun moments.

My house may be no show home, my kids may walk around like hillbillies, the Dork is fearful of life itself, the cats are being traumatized by Oscar, the terrorist bird, and the hubby sometimes leaves the house with two not-matching socks BUT it's all worth it and I am so darn proud of the way we live our life.

So this email is a Thank You to my wonderful husband and the best father my girls could have, for making this all possible for us!

And now I need to go and clean up my "show home" :)