Angel Dork

My phone rang at 8:30 am this morning, we were hustling to get the Ls ready for school.
I missed the call and L came running "Mama, Mama, it's the vet!".
Anxious to hear the lab results I phoned right back.
When they answered they didn't tell me the results but asked me to hold, the Doctor wanted to talk to me.
I knew right then things weren't good but I didn't expect to hear what I heard.

Our Eddie had passed away last night.

The vet went on and on about the diagnosis and how he is treating two other dogs with the same condition but I had stopped listening after "passed away".
I just stared, numb, at the floor, unable to move or think.
He noticed and told me to phone back after we had collected our thoughts.

30 minutes later we all went to the Vet to see Dorkie one last time, touch him and say our good-byes.
It all felt like some part out of a movie, unreal and unbelievable.

There he laid, wrapped in blankets, his head popped-up by his favorite blanket, looking like he was deep asleep.
One touch though and you knew he wasn't sleeping. His little body was cold and stiff and there was no Dork there, just his lifeless, little, black furry body, but my Dork, he was GONE.

You know God, you may think I can deal with all of this but let me tell you, I CAN NOT!
3 years - 3 losses.

First my Willie, my forever dog.
Then the baby, that itty heart that stopped beating.
And now our FAMILY dog, the one my Ls LOVED so much, the one MY HUSBAND loved so much, the one that HEALED MY BROKEN HEART after Willie.
Really, it's a bit too much!

The timing is just like Willie's was.
Monday vet : " just an upset stomach, by tonight he should be better"
Tuesday (back to see our vet): HM.... this is a head-scratcher. Can't move his hind legs very well, very low body temp, spasming, no food intake, severely dehydrated. Let's keep him and run a blood test and do x-rays. Maybe he fell and hurt his spine?
Wednesday (8:30 am) He is GONE.

Diagnosis: Addison's disease , a very severe and aggressive form of it.

Again we had to order a little wooden box and again we had to go home with a collar and leash, no Dorkie.

So this is all we have left, his bed, his beloved sheep, his leash and 4 very hurting hearts!

Thanks to the Marriotts we didn't enter the house until late tonight.

Jay kept the Ls busy and happy and from thinking about ...

But when we came home there was nobody at the door, no howling contests between L and Dork, no chewed up toys and no shredded tissue boxes all over the yard.

We lit up the fire pit and pulled out the old books we still had from when Willie had left ..

                                      

This time L read it to us .

And I read them the other beloved story.
I deeply believe Willie was my forever dog and I always thought I couldn't love another dog the way I had loved him.
But judging by the tears and the broken heart that hurts so very much I'd say that my forever dog just got a forever dog-brother.

And while staring at the fire I wandered into memory lane ...

Dork with his favorite uncle Bin

pillow pet :)

LOVING the sun! 

His favorite place on earth, with his papa!

Dork kisses!

When Dork got bored!

DORK!

Savf on Papa's shoulders.

Oh he didn't like that! no-no he didn't!

He LOVED the cats ... they just didn't love him back!

Didn't like driving so much. He barfed all aver the car ever, single time!

 Bone Head ... my favorite shirt of his!

Such a sweet Dorkie face!

Going crazy with his sheep!

Best student ever!

Learning about the nativity!

He ate every Barbie he found!!! ... secretly I thanked him for it :)

In his x-mas suit :)

His favorite past time, chewing and playing!

His typical, sweet Dork face!

Snuggling with his sheep!

It'll be with me, all snuggled up tonight ....

Best Friends!

He LOVED the Ls!!! and they LOVED him!!!

He LOVED the cats ... but they didn't love him  :)

He LOVED his red blankie!
He will be cremated with it ... we made sure of that!

MY DORK!!! Oh how I miss your sweet, silly face already!

Rest in peace my love!
Do know that you were a big part of our family and you'll be forever in our hearts!

Willie's ashes went to his most beloved spots, the beach, del valle and his tree but you will stay where you loved it most! HERE with us!
Your Papa has reserved a nice space on his night stand for you so you can always be near him, just like you like it!
And a Rose will be in the window where you would wait for him to come home, every single day!
Your Papa missed you when he came home tonight. Nobody to jump all over him, happy to see him and to be with him.
His eyes are red and his heart is hurting for he lost his best friend today ... we all did!

Good night my little Dorkie! Sleep well and have safe travels to Doggy Heaven.
Just keep a look out for the little guy with the wagging tail and the huge underbite. It's your brother Willie and he'll be taking care of you from now on until I can take over again.

See you up there my LOVE!!!

Good bye my friend! Good bye!!!